When I started my journey, I had no idea where it would lead me.
And guess what? That’s the beauty.
My story
I used to say my story began when I sustained a chemical eye injury at work. But in all reality, it started before I even got here. Making a plan with everyone I would meet along the way, the obstacles we would overcome, and the evolution of our souls. It’s not an easy journey being human, but it is the most rewarding.
My first obvious synchronicity happened the summer between 8th and 9th grade. I was in a golf cart with my friends and we drove by this house with a multitude of lawn ornaments including a large Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs. I thought to myself…”What kind of people live there?”
Fast forward to April-ish of my 9th grade year, after I had met this really cute, hunky, basketball loving boy. He wanted me to meet his family and so we rolled up to the house with the Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs. I about shit myself! Haha. I turned to my then boyfriend and said, “I have a story for you!”
What I didn’t know, was that the love of my life, my soul mate, the one who keeps coming back time and time again as my husband, lived there. I didn’t know that we would work through some really hard times. I didn’t know we would first have 2 dogs, build a house, have 2 kids, get a cat, bury that cat, have another child, bury 2 dogs, and get 2 rabbits. I didn’t know that when I was at my lowest, he would help me through. I didn’t know that he would support me as I evolved. I didn’t know that he would slowly evolve alongside me. I didn’t know that eventually I would know without a shadow of a doubt that we were meant to be together forever in this life and many more lifetimes after this.
My Evolution
My world was upended when I had that injury at work. It was the kick in the butt to put me back on my path…not the one that I was carving out for myself, but the one I didn’t know that I desperately needed.
I started seeing the truth around me— all around me. Then I started noticing it inside me. There’s this internal struggle when the truth comes rearing it’s not “ugly” head, but others will probably see it that way. You’ll start noticing that people around you start leaving, you don’t make sense to them anymore, and frankly it’s because you’re not aligned.
What you will notice, is that you will love yourself more than you ever have. That truth will literally set you free. You won’t “need” anything from anyone because you are completely whole just as you are. You have all the answers inside of you. I have all the answers inside of me. I didn’t know it back then, but I do now.
Along the way, I found out that what we were taught about our body was absolutely not true. Your body is constantly trying to heal you. What gets in the way? You. And your inability to communicate with the body. I started seeking out healers and what I found was an entire universe I never knew existed.
Then, I started trusting myself. I felt a pull to take a Reiki course, so I did that knowing nothing about Reiki. I felt a pull to take a CFT course after I saw an Instagram video and I did that. After CFT, I knew that was the ticket to opening my own practice. Then I hit a rough spot. How in the world can I bridge my SLP background and holistic healing. So I did what most people do and I googled “holistic SLP”.
To my absolute surprise, there was one. One who became not only my mentor, but friend. The one who figuratively held me when I was in my darkest hours, not trying to fix me, not trying to have the answers, but providing me the space to figure me out— while providing the best intuitive information available at that moment.
Recently, I have been on a rocky healing journey that has taught me the most profound lessons of my life so far. Through that healing, I have come to many conclusions. I am the one who is unafraid to say that intuitive, clairvoyant, and multidimensional. I am learning to put up and hold boundaries. I know that I am unconditionally loved in my light and in my shadow. I know the people who are meant to be in my life will be there, no matter what. I know that the most important work I do is on and for myself. You will soon learn the most important work you do is on and for you too.
I am constantly doing the work, evolving, learning new skills, and fine tuning the ones I have. I’m not afraid to feel. I’m not afraid to say “I don’t know” and go look up as much as I can…or tune into the energetic field around me. I’m not afraid to try new things. I’m not afraid to make mistakes and learn from them. I’m not afraid to look at my darkest shadows and love them too. I’m human and it’s a miracle that I am. Just as it is a miracle to be you.
Creating
Along the way, I leaned into my creativity. I used to draw and write songs when I was younger. Those came back and even more fun this time. When my mind is in a creative state, I flow. In my mind, I create businesses, new techniques, and ways to heal.
I came to a space where I was really desperate to find someone to provide a healing space in the way I work with others. Unfortunately and fortunately, each one of us is so uniquely different that there is no way to replicate me.
After a fall, I found myself in a situation where my chiropractor was not open and I was in pain. So I went to the float spa, hoping to find some relief. What I found was that in the epsom salt filled water, my body was able to engage in a flow like CFT but without the need for any practitioner. It was then I knew I could tap into healing myself in the way that I needed.
I was stuck for a long while that I needed a float pod, but that was completely unrealistic. Trying to collaborate with them was not working either. So one day after another pain, I laid on my massage table and surrendered.
I found that I was able to release my fascia, move energy, and connect to my intuition extremely quick in this surrendered flow movement. It was not only healing my body, it was providing me with a meditative state, movement of stagnant energy, and mental clarity.
And that’s how Integrating the Human Experience (IHE) was born. All from the idea that I needed to replicate myself to heal— I needed to heal myself. Guess what? You can heal yourself too.
Today, my creative outlets include podcasting, sketching, journaling, and writing songs. Someday I will write a book and create a swimsuit line. I am really excited for that!
Now
Now, I’m in a state of embodiment. I’m tired of doing, doing, doing, and now I am just being. It’s a kind of love and freedom that gives you the power to create your own world. A peaceful yet scary state that again…you have everything you need.
I invite opportunity and collaboration with others who truly want the best for humanity above personal need. I align with those who are for my highest good. I do my best to live in the present moment, which seems to be my biggest challenge at this time, but with each day and more intention, I will stay in the now— because that’s all we have.
I have poured into my business in many ways and I truly feel like it’s time to allow the work to pay off. Put my full surrender and trust in God/Spirit/Universe that the truth of who I am and what I am meant to do for humanity will reveal itself in the highest possible timeline, not on my time, but divine timing.
Now that I am embodying my truth—my next step is teaching my children to trust their intuition, feel through the good times and the bad, and to know and embody the truth of who they are.
In this moment, I am showing up as someone who doesn’t have it all figured out. If I did, what a boring journey this life would be. What I do know is that I know unconditional love, I know that I make a difference in this world just being me, and I know that when I get quiet I have all the answers I could ever need.
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